Careless Souls, We Have Become.

I Can't do anything right. I can't keep up with him. I'll never rise up to meet his unrealistic and exponentially high expectations.

And this drives me crazy, because even though i'm not exactly an angel, my siblings aren't perfect. I mean, my brother has all this baby mama drama, and he still can "do no wrong', quoted from my sister. She and I are fed up with it. I dont know how much of this neglect I can take. It wears me down, even on my best days.

My mother says my dad is going to kick me out because I dont contribute money to the house every month. It makes me want to scream. I want to cry because I never ask for money, and if I do, it's $5 for the train to/from work.

What Sucks:

I do know that there are people who care about me, like friends, a few relatives, and some friend/co-workers. But what sucks is that, I dont see them often enough. Some of them are too far away, or too busy to catch up on things. What I'm trying to say is, I literally have no shoulder to cry on. I think every girl deserves one of those. Just one.

Just once, I'd like someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay.

I'm going to go chain smoke, because that's what I do when I'm "like this."