When I think of my friends who are good students or who are making a living, I feel like such a failure. I mean, they're in good schools with certain goals. They go to class like they're supposed to. They go to sleep like they're supposed to.

I can't even manage to attend all of my classes. I'm just physically and emotional drained this semester and I just can't do it. At this point, I don't want to finish school. I'll be so old when I graduate and it will be so fucking embarrassing. I can't take it.

I've failed as a sister, aunt, and daughter. And now, I'm failing as a student and a contributing member of society.

I think my friends are great. They're going to make a difference out of college, I just know it. And they might downplay if I ever tell them this, but I think it's true. I know it's unhealthy to compare myself to them and I know they won't like it if I tell them that I do it.

I wish I could shake these feelings but I can't. Not today.