I'm trying so hard. I'm so focused. I'm all organized now, so why do I feel so overwhelmed still?

I'm juggling everything.

-school
-finding a job
-getting into Chapman
-dieting

It's so much. Hopefully dieting won't be so hard. I'm so stressed that I can barely eat. All I do is organize all day. Charts have taken over my life. Chapman has taken over my life. I don't even have a life anymore.

I'm turning into this paranoid girl. It's unhealthy but I want this so bad. No one understands how badly I want this.

I will fucking scream if I do not get accepted.