I am slower than molasses at moving forward. But I think I'm doing it. I'm going so slow that I can't even tell. Every day is absolute shit. But deep down, and I mean very deep down, I know it has to get better.

School starts next week. I'll be busy again with no time to think or cry or exaggerate. School will hopefully be my life until May 4th. And then it will be summer, I'll be taking a class or two, and I'll get back to my social life. Again, no time to think.

With school and music, I'm hoping that this year will be kinder to me. I hope that this summer, I can just take time to figure shit out.

In fact, I actually look forward to this summer. Full of debauchery and fun. Hopefully, I'll be by the pool during the day and out with friends at night. Let the bunnies out of their hutches. Hopefully find a job.

I'm still hopeful.