Don't Let Fear of Falling Hold You Down

[Sunrise, view from my bedroom]

67 degrees in late November? Crazy but good. This weather is awesome. I'm wearing shorts :)

I didn't go to sleep until 7am this morning. I woke up around 11am and I'm surprisingly not tired. I got to watch the sunrise. I haven't done that since October. The sky was pink.

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I just got an interview for Wednesday in Braintree. Not exactly what I wanted because of the distance but at this point, I'm desperate. I hope I get the job and I hope the pay is equal or higher than what I ended with at PetSmart.

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KC and I have been getting along better. She and I had a good talk the other night. She made a lot of sense in what she said. It was good and it got me thinking.

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I still can't believe that December is a few days away. Where did the time go? This has been one of the toughest years so far. So much pain and tears and sleepless nights. So much writing and typing and slammed doors.

I can't believe that I'm here. Like, HERE. Right now. I survived this year. I'm proud of myself. This was just an off year. So much disappointment and abandonment. After all of the shit I've been through, I'm still standing.

I'm still here. I guess I was stronger than I thought. I still have faith and hope. I just know that things can only get better. And sure, people have left but there are people still here. And there are people on their way. The power of words is unbelievable, really. A simple "It gets better" can make a difference.

Next year, more smiles, less fear. More laughter, less tears. It's going to be a journey. Hell yes. Bring it on. I'm ready now for what ever life throws my way. I can take it. Because I'm strong and I'm not giving up. And I'm not going anywhere.