Sorry, This Library Is Closed.

Tonight, I am climbing a giant mountain of school work. Awesome. Loads of homework and studying. Should be a blast. In the past month, I have watched barely any television. I had three shows that I used to watch and now I've lost interest. Maybe it's because I'm too focused on school, employment, and my future in general. I still love movies of course. And if my daily to-do list is completed, I'll sometimes watch television with my mom late at night.

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I guess I can continue to write about my opinions on certain matters. But I think I'm done with all of the super personal things. I've let too many things into the open. Like I said, I am honest and I do not lie to the people who are important to me. But being open is an entirely different thing. Being open makes you vulnerable. Vulnerable is something I am not willing to be right now.

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I can write about my past, because the past is in the past and it is done. However, I won't be writing about anything happening now. The present is off limits. The present is written in a hardcover, pink and brown book with an attached silk ribbon bookmark. My diary is in the open, under my iHome/radio. I figure it won't look as suspicious. That book contains my present feelings and all that jazz. I write in it almost every night, since I said that I wouldn't write personal things on here anymore.

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I can write about many things pertaining to what I've been through, sure. But today, I'm setting boundaries. Hell, I'm not even sure anyone reads this. But still, it matters to me.

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I'm cutting KC out of my life completely. Actually, I'm cutting out every negative thing and person out of my life. I'm 20, ambitious, goal-oriented, and focused. I don't need some bitch to call me a liar one day and a best friend the next day. It's a like a rollercoaster ride with that girl. As angry as she makes me, I sure hope she finds a guy to put up with her relentless bullshit. She's so fake and I can't deal with it anymore.

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I'm definitely focusing on "the now". Just today. Not yesterday and not tomorrow. I cannot dwell on the past and I cannot worry about tomorrow. I can only focus on today. I realize that now and the thought of that calms me.

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It's 6pm and I have a long night ahead of me. I'm probably going to end up multi-tasking by doing school work and watching the Bruins game :) And Milan Lucic is still my favorite :)