Let's Raise A Toast to A Sad Story

"Until you find something to fight for,

you settle for something to fight against."

— Chuck Palahniuk

Today, I kept busy. I had my phone off. I was disconnected from the world. Today, I felt nothing. Which felt like a good break from all the pain I've felt this week.

I cried last night. Seems like a daily occurrence. I had trouble sleeping. I finally fell asleep during the sunrise.

For the entire day, I was cleaning outside. Today was beautiful. This is my favorite kind of weather. Today was peaceful. But I cannot wait to escape this place.

When I leave, I may never return. There's nothing and no one here for me anymore. This way, I won't really have to say goodbye to anyone except for my brother and sister. I'm sure they'll be okay without me.

As much I sort of want to get things out of my head and onto this screen, I can't. I don't to cry tonight. I'm sick and tired of crying. This is a tear-free night for me.

I've been on a diet shake sort of diet for a week now. Just bought more shakes from the grocery store today. Week two, here we go.

I'm keeping myself busy tonight with a hefty amount of homework, cleaning, laundry, and some old 90's music.