IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!

I have 7 days to accept everything that has happened to me this year. 7 days to accept the people who have come in and out of my life. I have to accept what has changed in my life. I have to accept the hell I've been put through.

Accept the pain and the pleasure of being human. The truth and the lies and the pure, raw honesty in everyone. The flaws and imperfections of the people we admire. The addictions and shared pain among friends.

Secrets, quietly resting in our hearts. Ready or not ready to be revealed.

To be completely honest, I'm afraid. I want a confrontation. But I'm not good at it. I yell and cry and I lose control and I just lose myself in the moment.

But I am afraid. I'm afraid because things are happening. School is happening. Life is happening. A social life is happening. What is it called? It's called growing up. Wow.

I feel like 2011 was the year of pain and 2012 will be the year of reward. Rewards for being strong and surviving 2011.

I'm ready and strong enough to move on with new people and changes. I'm afraid of change but I'm ready nonetheless. I'm ready for new people and a new scene.