Hopefully, I can learn to play more songs. I've been copying down music allll night so far. Hopefully, I'll spend most of my days at the gym, with or without KC.
This means I can also hang out with friends any day of the week and sleep the next day until the afternoon :)
Winter break = fun, writing, music, and gym!!! So stoked!
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So, today, I wore what I thought was a decent outfit. Low cut tank top, thin/flowy sweater, fitted jeans, and fur boots. I figured it was my last day at QC so I would dress nice.
Little did I know I'd get "the nod". You know the nod. The nod you get when a guy is either checking out your ass or your tits, or both. Well, I got the "tit nod". I honestly looked around to see if they were nodding at someone else. But they weren't. So, I was a bit turned off at that point. I had a great day until I got "the nod".
And on my way to the train station, I see more guys. I hadn't had the chance to put my jacket on, so I just carried it. As I passed them, I heard a whistle. I kept walking and then I heard "Dayumm girl! You like that?" So, I walked faster. Like really? Grow the fuck up. I realize that it is somewhat of a compliment and to let it go, but still. It bothered me.
There's still a level of insecurity that I have and I'm not used to the nods or whistles. I was nodded at occasionally in high school. So, it's been years since I've had that kind of reaction to my body image.
Sure, I like compliments, but only from the right people. I guess my outfit today attracted the wrong type. Maybe next semester, I'll wear the same jeans but sweaters and shirts with more coverage. Who knows.
I'm just glad I didn't wear my leggings and mini-skirt.
I told my sister what I'm wearing a hoodie and sweatpants allll next semester.
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Tomorrow is Bru's graduation. I haven't seen her in ages. I miss her tons.
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Well, after copying music onto paper, I'm going to head upstairs to practice and maybe fall asleep to some Netflix :)
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